Kaya ko pa ba?

Isang tanong ang pauli-ulit kong tinatanong sa sarili ko tuwing gabi, “Kaya ko pa ba?”

Sa iba’t ibang bagay na nangyayari ngayun sa buhay mo, kaya mo pa nga kaya? Kaya mo pa kayang harapin ang bukas ng walang takot o pangamba? May iba’t ibang rason kung bakit na itatanong natin ang katagang “Kaya ko pa ba?” hindi man lahat pero ito ang iba: 

  • Namatayan ka– Minsan tao, minsan puso mo.(biro lang!)
  • Problema sa pera – Kulang o ‘di naman kaya’y kapos
  • Trabaho – Hindi mo gusto yung trabaho mo o ‘di mo lang talaga gusto yung pagpapalakad ng boss mo.
  • Pag-aaral – Mahirap dahil sobrang dami mo nangang kaylangang ipasa at aaralin, kapos ka pa pang bayad ng matrikula.
  • Pamilya – minsan sa sobrang gulo hindi mo narin alam kung pamilya pa ba talaga.
  • Sakit – yung nainom mo na lahat ng gamot, wala pading epekto.
  • Pag-ibig – minsan mo nangalang ibigay ang puso mo, napaglaruan pa. (Ga’no kadalas ang minsan mo? Biro lang!)
  • Hindi mo alam – hindi mo alam kung anung problema pero pakiramdam mo meron.

‘Gaya ng sabi ‘ko kanina, hindi lahat ay mailalagay ko, ayoko ng problemahin kung paano ko ‘yun malalagay lahat dahil ‘di naman ako Diyos. Maaring napasama sa listahan na ginawa ko ‘yung problemang pinagdadaanan mo, maaring hindi. Pero ano nga bang sagot sa tanong na “Kaya ko pa ba?”

Nagdadasal ako sa banyo nung nakuha ko ang sagot sa tanong na ‘yan. Oo, sa banyo. Kasi dun lang yung tahimk at lugar kung saan ako lang mag-isa. Hindi lang naman kasi sa simbahan lang pwede mag dasal, kahit saan naman kasi andyan si Lord. Sabi ko pa “Lord, kaya ko pa ba? Kaya ko pa ba?” At naalala ko ito:

2 Corinthians 12:9-10
9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Nakalimutan ko na hindi ko nga pala laban ‘to. Simula nung sinuko ko ang buhay ko kay Lord, lahat ng laban ko ay sa Kanya na. At sa pinakamahinang parte ng buhay ko, ‘dun ko pinaka makikita ang lakas Niya. Para sa akin nga pala Siya at hindi nagbabago’yun kahit magbago man ang sitwasyon at emosyon ko.

Ang sagot pala sa tanong ko ay simple lang pero importanteng wag nating makalimutan, Kung lahat posible sa Kanya, at Siya ang pinagkukuhaan mo ng lakas… Kakayanin mo. Oo, kakayanin mo kahit ano pa man iyan dahil hindi nangiiwan sa ere si Lord. Ipaglalaban at sasamahan ka Niya hanggang huli. Kakayanin mo dahil para Siya sa’yo. Continue reading “Kaya ko pa ba?”


A Man of Prayers

Oh, how I really want to have a man of prayers,

Who values his relationship with the Father.

A man who could shut his doors,

Earnesly wanting to see His face.
Oh, I’m praying for you, a man of prayers! 

May you seek His heart before seeking mine, 

For He will teach you to love the way He loves,

As you earnesly seek Him first.
I’m praying for you, man of prayers!

Because that man who seek God’s heart zealously 

Can only be the one to have my heart.

For my heart is hidden in His.

Prayer WORKS

As a young Christian, it has been my dream to attend a Christian concert namely Citipointe, Hillsong, Planetshakers, Israel & New Breed, & Bethel. Last June 4 Hillsong Young & Free, one of the most popular Christian Band in today’s  era had their concert here in the Philippines—our beloved Mother Land!

Looking back, when I started to have an interest in their concert and began to pray to God,to be honest I just prayed and never did I save a peso for any concerts. Thinking that God can do anything miraculously, yes He does! But I’m too lazy to do my part.  I don’t have any money for that concert, so I began to think for some other ways that led me to message my eldest brother- Abelard. Here is the timeline of our conversation:

April 7– I messaged him if we could watch the concert together. He asked for the price so I sent him the list. End of Conversation.

April 11– I reminded him about the concert. He then replied, ” I’ll check it first. I’ll let you know.” Knowing him “I’ll let you know.” could also means “Maybe not.” But I didn’t lose hope. I prayed and believed.

April 16- He sent a message saying, “We will watch Hillsong :)”

I was so happy! Thanking God for an answered prayer. But God is a God of twist and turns! 

April 18– My brother told me that the VIP & Lower Box tickets were sold out!

I thanked him for trying and told him that God has a better plan for us. But as I’ve said earlier, He is a God of twist & turns! ‘Yung akala mo iyun na, hindi pa pala!


So last May 27, 2016 the Facebook page of Batang Superbook started a contest where in you can win two tickets for Youth Revival Concert; Hillsong Y& F. For the past few years I’ve been seeing those kind of contest-like & share to win but never did I join. However, that day was different. I decided to join the contest by liking, sharing and answering the question “Why it is important to share Jesus to the next generation?” I know a lot of people will join that contest but I really want it so bad. Throughout the week I’ve learned a lot of things while praying and waiting:

1. Pray

“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.” -Matthew 7:7 niv


Remember that your God is your Father. A Father is a provider in a household, so is your God! Your Father owns the Heaven and the Earth, ask Him anything according to His will! But praying is not enough, you need to…

2. Believe 

“Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.” – Mark 11:24 niv

It’s easy to say “Pray and Believe” but to tell you the truth, it’s hard! Specially waiting! I tweeted last May saying, “Lord, umaasa padin po ako sa ticket ng Hillsong Young & Free” suddenly some people messaged me and tweeted me saying, “I’m selling my ticket” “My friend is selling her ticket” etc. I was tempted to grab the opportunity but I was reminded that if I prayed and believed that God will let me win in that contest, I need to stand on my faith! I rejected their offer.

What happened next after praying & believing ?

June 2,  As soon as I woke up, I went online to view who won but they haven’t posted yet. So I continued to pray and do my errands for that day. I went to a ministry meeting and attended the Midweek service at around 7:15 PM. During the service the Lord impressed a word in my heart “Prayer WORKS” I was reminded that…

God is ALWAYS faithful in doing His part but I need to be faithful with my part as well!

Throughout the years that I’ve been praying to attend such a concert, but I never did my part by saving up money or joining a contest that I’m freely to do so! I prayed and thanked God for teaching me the real deal- PRAYING, BELIEVING and DOING whatever part that He’ll give me! What happened next?

On my way home at around 9 PM, I received a call from my Pastor. He told me that I won the contest! As soon as I got home I viewed the page of Batang Superbook, the winners was announced at around 7:30 PM. Yes! During the service, during the time that the Lord was teaching me about the Prayer WORKS!


 I encourage you to PRAY, BELIEVE and TAKE PART as God does His part. 

The truth is, God is mighty to do anything alone but He wants us to know the true meaning of “RELATIONSHIP”. In any relationship, you and the other person involved does things together. So if we’re saying that we have that relationship with God,as His sons and daughters, He’s letting us experience His goodness to the fullest, by involving us in our own prayers! By doing amazing and incredible things with us! Not because He can’t do it alone but because He wants us to experience Him in a new level, to have a fresh testimony about His goodness ! If He did it to me, I’m sure He wants to do it with you! Just let Him do His part as you take part.

Have a blessed week a head!



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The Void That Annoyed Me


This past few days I felt that there is something lacking within me. I suddenly felt in-complete. There is a void that makes me feel uncomfortable. The void is annoying me! Are you feeling the same? Let me share my story and together let’s overcome it!

Every time that I’m feeling things this way, I usually stop for a moment and check myself. Here are some questions that might help you:  

  1. What are the things that I’ve been doing this past few days?
  2. Am I isolating myself?
  3. What are the things that I’ve been meditating on?


Done answering those questions? You better answer it with all honesty! Here are my honest response to those questions:

1.What are the things that I’ve been doing this past few days? 

I’ve been to a team building, ministry overnight/outing but most of the time, to be honest, this past few days I’ve been laying down my bed and just scrolling my Facebook, Instagram and Twitter account. Scrolling it ’till the end and refreshes it again to see new things not until I get bored and go offline.

2. Am I isolating myself?


When I don’t feel good I really try my best to be with my friends or family because isolation is where usually the enemy is doing his awful job.  In Ecclesiastes 4:9-10 it says,

 Two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their toil.For if they fall, one will lift up his fellow. But woe to him who is alone when he falls and has not another to lift him up!

However, I heard a news this week that pinched my heart. I isolated myself. Thinking it’s an ‘alone time‘ but in reality I’m just locking myself in a room of lies and pain. And then today, I realized that I will not allow the enemy to feed me with lies again. I will not allow him to steal my joy once more for my Joy is not base on my performance, talents, and the stuffs that I have. My Joy  has a name- His name is Jesus. I decided to message my friend  through Facebook. I told her my situation and asked for her prayers. Look at what she said:


A lot of times people thinks that whenever someone is sharing a struggle to them, they need to answer it with a solution.(I was one of them) But most of the time a person who is struggling just need a friend who will listen and will pray for them. That is the importance of an accountability partner.

3.What are the things that I’ve been meditating on?

Yesterday I decided to watch several sermons on the internet. I knew that at that moment God is urging me to read my Bible. I disobeyed. Instead of reading the Bible I started to watch the Popoy and Basha marathon, “One More Chance and A Second Chance for the win” – I thought! Haha! But it didn’t help me. I was sad and ironically I fed my sadness with a dramatic movie. I’m not really helping myself.Be careful on the things that you are meditating on. It might help you or destroy you.

The void that I’ve been feeling all this time was not to be filled with any senti music, dramatic or romantic movies, not even my favorite ice cream! But to be filled by God alone and yet I’m neglecting Him. The hole within me is a God-sized-hole. A place for Him. A place meant for Him alone!

For he satisfies the longing soul, and the hungry soul he fills with good things. – Psalm 107:9 ESV

I started to really have an ‘Alone Time’ with my King. I was about to search the album entitled “Magnificent Obsession” to play the song “Worthy Of It All” but I accidentally played the song “Magnificent” by Darlene Zschech. A song that I really adored way back 2013 when I came to know Christ. The moment when the song played I felt the exact thing that I experience when I first knelt on His presence. It is His grace and love! How could I forget about His grace and love for me? How could I forget about Him?

Though our feelings come and go, God’s love does not. – C.S Lewis

Nakakatuwa at nakakahiya na minsan nakakalimutan na natin Siyang mahalin pero Siya, loyal padin , Mahal padin tayo ng buong buo. Just like the Father in the  Prodigal Son, He welcomed me with arms wide open. Celebrating for my return in His arms! I’m sure He will do the same with you. He gave His one and only Son, Jesus Christ, to die on the cross just to have us back again in His arms. (John 3:16)

Nuon hindi ko alam ang ibigsabihin ng PAGMAMAHAL dahil mismo sa sarili ko, hindi ko ‘to kayang ibigay. Pero ang buti Mo! Ang buti Mo Panginoon! Hindi Mo lang pinakita saakin ang PAGMAMAHAL Mo ngunit ipinaramdam Mo rin ito saakin. Ipinaramdam Mo ng buongbuo ang PAGMAMAHAL sa isang taong basag-basag na tulad ko.

The void within me was not just avoided but filled with His love. The only thing that can perfectly fit to remove the void. The only LOVE that can make me feel 100% complete. Good news, that LOVE is for you as well!


Do you need a prayer? Are you currently in this situation? Comment bellow, I would gladly pray for you!


Let Tomorrow Worry About Itself


It was three weeks ago when I went to Nora’s Resort at Pundaquit, San Antonio, Zambales together with my Cornerstone family. We are all excited to see the much awaited Anawangin Cove. However, we need to ride a boat from the resort to Anawangin Cove for about 15mins; it was my first time riding a boat. A bit scared at first, seeing the waves and how small our boat was, but the excitement inside me covers all the fear.

Nora’s Beach Restort

Before we rode the boat, Abby, a 9 years old girl, was walking before me. Her brothers were teasing her saying, “Natatakot si Abby!” (Abby is scared!) She disagreed with them. We rode the same boat and sat behind me. When the engine of our boat started, someone was patting my shoulder. I look back and saw her looking at me. Imagine her puppy eyes! I asked her why, she said, “Teacher, can you hold my hand? I’m afraid.” I smiled at her and hold her hand so tight to make her feel comfortable.


Anawangin Cove, Zambales
Photo Credits : Wildone Christian Ibanez





Few minutes passed and still, I’m holding her hand. I decided to pray. A prayer without structure. Just talking to God casually. I began to realized that I have 3 days left before my enrollment. And guess what? I still don’t have enough money for the payment! I asked God “Lord, what should I do? Please help me.” Then suddenly I realized a lot of things about Abby’s situation earlier.

  1. I’m not really asking God’s help.

At first, Abby was in denial that she’s afraid and need someone to give her comfort in a very uncomfortable situation. I realized that throughout the week, I kept on thinking on how could I provide rather than asking God’s provision.

      2. I should have depended on Him.

If only I depended on Him with 101%, I won’t feel that way-fear of needing to stop from going to school, like before. I forgot that He is not only a God by title but He is a living God! He is my Father, He loves me and He will provide all my needs. Just like when Abby asked for my presence to comfort her, I began to ask God’s presence to comfort me and to take-over my life. No need to worry because He got me. Because He is my Father. In His presence there is provision, protection, and peace.

When we went back to the resort, I began to share this story with ate Cathy. And God reminded me through her with this scripture:

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. – Matthew 6:34 NIV

We should not worry about tomorrow, each day has enough trouble of its own. But good news, each day has enough grace of its own! Let tomorrow worry about itself! Thank You Jesus, finally enrolled by God’s grace!