The Void That Annoyed Me

 

This past few days I felt that there is something lacking within me. I suddenly felt in-complete. There is a void that makes me feel uncomfortable. The void is annoying me! Are you feeling the same? Let me share my story and together let’s overcome it!

Every time that I’m feeling things this way, I usually stop for a moment and check myself. Here are some questions that might help you:  

  1. What are the things that I’ve been doing this past few days?
  2. Am I isolating myself?
  3. What are the things that I’ve been meditating on?

 

Done answering those questions? You better answer it with all honesty! Here are my honest response to those questions:

1.What are the things that I’ve been doing this past few days? 

I’ve been to a team building, ministry overnight/outing but most of the time, to be honest, this past few days I’ve been laying down my bed and just scrolling my Facebook, Instagram and Twitter account. Scrolling it ’till the end and refreshes it again to see new things not until I get bored and go offline.

2. Am I isolating myself?

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When I don’t feel good I really try my best to be with my friends or family because isolation is where usually the enemy is doing his awful job.  In Ecclesiastes 4:9-10 it says,

 Two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their toil.For if they fall, one will lift up his fellow. But woe to him who is alone when he falls and has not another to lift him up!

However, I heard a news this week that pinched my heart. I isolated myself. Thinking it’s an ‘alone time‘ but in reality I’m just locking myself in a room of lies and pain. And then today, I realized that I will not allow the enemy to feed me with lies again. I will not allow him to steal my joy once more for my Joy is not base on my performance, talents, and the stuffs that I have. My Joy  has a name- His name is Jesus. I decided to message my friend  through Facebook. I told her my situation and asked for her prayers. Look at what she said:

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A lot of times people thinks that whenever someone is sharing a struggle to them, they need to answer it with a solution.(I was one of them) But most of the time a person who is struggling just need a friend who will listen and will pray for them. That is the importance of an accountability partner.

3.What are the things that I’ve been meditating on?

Yesterday I decided to watch several sermons on the internet. I knew that at that moment God is urging me to read my Bible. I disobeyed. Instead of reading the Bible I started to watch the Popoy and Basha marathon, “One More Chance and A Second Chance for the win” – I thought! Haha! But it didn’t help me. I was sad and ironically I fed my sadness with a dramatic movie. I’m not really helping myself.Be careful on the things that you are meditating on. It might help you or destroy you.

The void that I’ve been feeling all this time was not to be filled with any senti music, dramatic or romantic movies, not even my favorite ice cream! But to be filled by God alone and yet I’m neglecting Him. The hole within me is a God-sized-hole. A place for Him. A place meant for Him alone!

For he satisfies the longing soul, and the hungry soul he fills with good things. – Psalm 107:9 ESV

I started to really have an ‘Alone Time’ with my King. I was about to search the album entitled “Magnificent Obsession” to play the song “Worthy Of It All” but I accidentally played the song “Magnificent” by Darlene Zschech. A song that I really adored way back 2013 when I came to know Christ. The moment when the song played I felt the exact thing that I experience when I first knelt on His presence. It is His grace and love! How could I forget about His grace and love for me? How could I forget about Him?

Though our feelings come and go, God’s love does not. – C.S Lewis

Nakakatuwa at nakakahiya na minsan nakakalimutan na natin Siyang mahalin pero Siya, loyal padin , Mahal padin tayo ng buong buo. Just like the Father in the  Prodigal Son, He welcomed me with arms wide open. Celebrating for my return in His arms! I’m sure He will do the same with you. He gave His one and only Son, Jesus Christ, to die on the cross just to have us back again in His arms. (John 3:16)

Nuon hindi ko alam ang ibigsabihin ng PAGMAMAHAL dahil mismo sa sarili ko, hindi ko ‘to kayang ibigay. Pero ang buti Mo! Ang buti Mo Panginoon! Hindi Mo lang pinakita saakin ang PAGMAMAHAL Mo ngunit ipinaramdam Mo rin ito saakin. Ipinaramdam Mo ng buongbuo ang PAGMAMAHAL sa isang taong basag-basag na tulad ko.

The void within me was not just avoided but filled with His love. The only thing that can perfectly fit to remove the void. The only LOVE that can make me feel 100% complete. Good news, that LOVE is for you as well!

 

Do you need a prayer? Are you currently in this situation? Comment bellow, I would gladly pray for you!

 

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